Being close to someone on the autistic spectrum, I can really relate to so many of the topics you have mentioned, and having witnessed many of these in action, I can empathise with your lived in experiences.Yes sudden change can be very challenging at times.
Thank you for sharing your story and for educating us about your condition. Glad that your writing is also a tool to help in your own therapy.
By the way I found Asha and Mila's previous explanations about the different parts that can potentially be included as part of a System in DID, very helpful towards better understanding of your condition. Also appreciated the different terms used, especially the ones that you System prefers. Sending so much love to you all.
OMG FOOD TEXTURES (yeah, I relate…) In fact, the more I read, the more I am aware of the many things we have in common. I don’t have a diagnosis, and don’t know whether I truly would meet the criteria, but there is a very cute video on IG called AuDHD Described by Ducks, which pretty well describes me to a tee… All love <3
Thank you Asha for sharing your world. Praying for you and your identiies for total healing and peace so a new life and person can emerge to the beautiful person You are. You truely deserve that. May God Bless you and your journey. With much love Sharon
I will continue to read your posts, each one is so enlightening! The only suggestion for topics to share is any time you've written, "I'll write more about that later." I'm ready to hear the next part any time you're prepared to write about it! You're truly awesome for being truthful and transparent about your life experiences. Thanks!
Ahhhh, the painful, confusing, and challenging time we spent together a couple of years ago, makes so much sense now in the context of all you et al are discovering and now beginning to share. Widening your community, offering a mechanism to fund one of your super talents, while supporting your writing/healing/living journey is brilliant. I am grateful for the opportunity to be part of "your team" (once again dare I say?)! Trigger Warning...Additionally, I recall an adult student I had in one of my collegiate Human Sexuality classes a few decades ago. She was probably a bit older than I at the time, from a small rural part of our NE state. Because the only way to be graded was through showing up and a journaling process (vs typical testing), she faced and shared about a similar dilemma as yours. She wanted to be in the class (pursuing a degree) and learn what the range of healthy "normal" was, yet her past was so horrifically distorted, and her ability to show up and stay present was so compromised, that she needed to test me first to determine if she could work out a way to navigate the class. She knew of many "people" in her life, introduced, wrote, and named distinctly each voice that presented itself. What she wrote and spoke (in various voices to me) about would have made Steven King's novels seem tame by comparison. In retrospect, I wish I'd had someone to talk to/consult with during those months as I was simultaneously trying to process and understand (her multiple personalities and) all things related to cults, human sacrifice, sexual torture, child abuse, on one hand, and the (mostly) men, many "pseudo leaders" in some of our small towns and villages, who were involved in this so called secret stuff that seemingly no one would believe or be willing to intervene (on behalf of children). If nothing else, the experience helped me to better understand and process some dissociative experiences of my own that shocked and scared the living bejeezus out of me when they first occurred. Thankfully, compassion and empathy, grace and love, towards self and others presenting complicated and addictive behaviors, while navigating somewhere in the healing process, have resulted since that time. I pray that student found/created a team of support for her journey. I'm grateful the universe has connected you to a string of crumbs to follow in the form of angels along your path. You are not alone!
Thank you for sharing so much info about DID. ididn't know anything about it until I watched Susan's blog today. Both you and Mila write so well and make a complex subject understandable. Thank you for your openness. I am awestruck by how challenging life is foryou in so many ways and filled with admiration for how you manage it all. Youare in my prayers. Sending much love.
Thank you for commenting. Life is tough, but how things work and how weird things are are not new for us. It has actually gotten harder since being diagnosed because we now know not everyone is like us. It’s strange, but hopefully we can help others understand and maybe have an easier time if they too get diagnosed.
Co fronting and we will try to write further about it soon is when more than one of us is out at once. We sort of share the body space and it can get super weird like using both hands to do two different activities at once. It is exhausting and confusing but it is possible. Thank you for asking.
Thank you for writing! I totally get the weighted blanket thing! After I fell down the stairs, I feel the safest when sleeping in my recliner, the bed is way too wide and open ...
Being close to someone on the autistic spectrum, I can really relate to so many of the topics you have mentioned, and having witnessed many of these in action, I can empathise with your lived in experiences.Yes sudden change can be very challenging at times.
Thank you for sharing your story and for educating us about your condition. Glad that your writing is also a tool to help in your own therapy.
By the way I found Asha and Mila's previous explanations about the different parts that can potentially be included as part of a System in DID, very helpful towards better understanding of your condition. Also appreciated the different terms used, especially the ones that you System prefers. Sending so much love to you all.
OMG FOOD TEXTURES (yeah, I relate…) In fact, the more I read, the more I am aware of the many things we have in common. I don’t have a diagnosis, and don’t know whether I truly would meet the criteria, but there is a very cute video on IG called AuDHD Described by Ducks, which pretty well describes me to a tee… All love <3
Thank you Asha for sharing your world. Praying for you and your identiies for total healing and peace so a new life and person can emerge to the beautiful person You are. You truely deserve that. May God Bless you and your journey. With much love Sharon
I will continue to read your posts, each one is so enlightening! The only suggestion for topics to share is any time you've written, "I'll write more about that later." I'm ready to hear the next part any time you're prepared to write about it! You're truly awesome for being truthful and transparent about your life experiences. Thanks!
Ahhhh, the painful, confusing, and challenging time we spent together a couple of years ago, makes so much sense now in the context of all you et al are discovering and now beginning to share. Widening your community, offering a mechanism to fund one of your super talents, while supporting your writing/healing/living journey is brilliant. I am grateful for the opportunity to be part of "your team" (once again dare I say?)! Trigger Warning...Additionally, I recall an adult student I had in one of my collegiate Human Sexuality classes a few decades ago. She was probably a bit older than I at the time, from a small rural part of our NE state. Because the only way to be graded was through showing up and a journaling process (vs typical testing), she faced and shared about a similar dilemma as yours. She wanted to be in the class (pursuing a degree) and learn what the range of healthy "normal" was, yet her past was so horrifically distorted, and her ability to show up and stay present was so compromised, that she needed to test me first to determine if she could work out a way to navigate the class. She knew of many "people" in her life, introduced, wrote, and named distinctly each voice that presented itself. What she wrote and spoke (in various voices to me) about would have made Steven King's novels seem tame by comparison. In retrospect, I wish I'd had someone to talk to/consult with during those months as I was simultaneously trying to process and understand (her multiple personalities and) all things related to cults, human sacrifice, sexual torture, child abuse, on one hand, and the (mostly) men, many "pseudo leaders" in some of our small towns and villages, who were involved in this so called secret stuff that seemingly no one would believe or be willing to intervene (on behalf of children). If nothing else, the experience helped me to better understand and process some dissociative experiences of my own that shocked and scared the living bejeezus out of me when they first occurred. Thankfully, compassion and empathy, grace and love, towards self and others presenting complicated and addictive behaviors, while navigating somewhere in the healing process, have resulted since that time. I pray that student found/created a team of support for her journey. I'm grateful the universe has connected you to a string of crumbs to follow in the form of angels along your path. You are not alone!
Thank you for sharing so much info about DID. ididn't know anything about it until I watched Susan's blog today. Both you and Mila write so well and make a complex subject understandable. Thank you for your openness. I am awestruck by how challenging life is foryou in so many ways and filled with admiration for how you manage it all. Youare in my prayers. Sending much love.
Thank you for commenting. Life is tough, but how things work and how weird things are are not new for us. It has actually gotten harder since being diagnosed because we now know not everyone is like us. It’s strange, but hopefully we can help others understand and maybe have an easier time if they too get diagnosed.
Hello! I have also subscribed at Susan's request. Your writing is very interesting. Could you explain Co-fronting? Sending much love!
Co fronting and we will try to write further about it soon is when more than one of us is out at once. We sort of share the body space and it can get super weird like using both hands to do two different activities at once. It is exhausting and confusing but it is possible. Thank you for asking.
Thank you for writing! I totally get the weighted blanket thing! After I fell down the stairs, I feel the safest when sleeping in my recliner, the bed is way too wide and open ...
Thank you for writing. I get it about the texture of foods and clothes. Bedding, especially!
Can't wait for your next post.