Acceptance

When the Diagnosis Paints Things in a New Light

***This post discusses mental health diagnoses, neurodivergence, and personal experiences with autism and Dissociative Identity Disorder. It contains reflections on communication differences, emotional processing, and change. This is also our personal opinion on our journey.***

A Moment of Reflection

We were sitting here quietly, having just finished a coaching call discussing our hatred of being DID and potentially being autistic. We discussed our recent doctor’s appointment and how stupid we felt at being so reactive (that is a separate post). It was nearly silent in the apartment. The kind of still that carries your mind somewhere unexpected (in all fairness, this can sometimes be dangerous for us). It was not some dramatic revelation or some earth-shattering event. It was quieter than that, like the soft click of a puzzle piece finally sliding into place. We were thinking about the way we interact, the patterns that have never felt quite right but not totally wrong either. We thought about the way conversations sometimes felt like puzzles with missing pieces. That is when it hit us: maybe there really is another layer we have not been fully ready to acknowledge.